PTSD & Trauma[

Our body’s responses to PTSD or Trauma can be debilitating. There is so much anxiety and stress and fatigue involved. It is gut-wrenching, scary, and can even cause an out-of-body experience where we dissociate to avoid it together. Dissociation is the feeling of feeling detached from your own body to avoid this said threat which could be caused by something as “simple” as a thought, feeling, or memory. It’s almost like you are there physically in the present moment but mentally and emotionally safe elsewhere. The sensation of your consciousness leaves your body.

Self-awareness is so important. To be able to sit with what you are feeling and to be able to use your conscious mind to sit with and guide yourself through these experiences is life-changing. It won’t come easy. It’s uncomfortable, nauseating, overwhelming, and just plain sucks but By doing this, you are saving yourself from deeper rooted pain down the road. It’s the simplest of steps to get to the everlasting peace you are searching for and deserve.

I’m speaking about this because I lived it and I know a lot of other people are currently living it. If I can’t be open and transparent and hope and pray that my vulnerability helps just one person then what can I do? I know what it’s like to live in a state of denial and avoidance to avoid anything that could trigger a thought, feeling, or memory. I isolated the hell out of myself. Sure, I’m naturally an introvert BUT became avoidant of people, places, and things and that’s not fair to one’s self. Denial shoved deeper and deeper and deeper down is by far the worst thing you can do for your body, mind, and beautiful captivating soul that you have!

I thought dissociating was alright to do because I thought it was the “easy way” to get rid of it but it doesn’t get easier and it doesn’t go away on its own, rarely. If there’s one thing I hope for, it’s that by me being vulnerable and opening up, it can help just one other person who feels pain and is too scared to speak up. The process is honestly not an easy one but it’s worth the blood, sweat, and tears.

Know that YOU ARE NOT damaged or broken and YOU ARE WORTHY. I knew I was worthy of so much more than being someone that just lived with ComplexPTSD and you are so much more than it, too!

And I can promise you that Soul retrieval is such a beautiful thing.

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